During my younger days, I used to treat friendship and relationship as serious concern. I made it an effort to foster close relationship with my friends. However, I no longer have such desire due to several previous negative incidents. I quote one such example. Let me quote one such friend as Person A.
Person A is one whom I felt to be someone who I thought to be on the same wavelength as me. I made an effort to spend time establishing closer communication with Person A. However, I found time spent with Person A to be less and less. I realised that the earlier positive response from Person A is because of my ability to provide help for Person A’s benefits. Once the help was rendered, Person A no longer exhibited positive gesture to my effort for closer relationship. Eventually the contact ceased. Since this incident, I started to realise that it is not worthwhile to make the effort if the other party is initially responsive due to the benefits and cease doing so as there is no longer benefits. I also encountered other instance of non-reciprocation from other parties. Since these few incidents, I no longer bother with making effort for true friendship. I let nature take its course and focus on making myself happy instead. I live life on my own term. Recently, Person A started to reach out to me. I am not sure on the outlying reason and I am not bothered on probing further on this area which is not of my concern. Since I no longer deem it necessary to rekindle the friendship, I cease spending time on this area and focus on doing things which value more to me